Rainy Day Confessions

Today has not been my day.. and it's only 10. I didn't have any intentions on doing confessions today, because I had something else planned... something I've been working on for weeks. This morning my NEW computer (got it for Christmas) freaked out on me. It didn't crash, but might as well had. I lost everything. I wanted to cry - I've been meaning to backup my pictures for months and just haven't done it. I've already lost all pictures once of B when she was a newborn because my old computer crashed. Once that crashed I transferred everything I had onto Tate's computer and when I got my new one transferred everything to my new one. I'm hoping I left them on Tate's and didn't delete them - we haven't used his since I got the new one. I was so upset I was sick! The tech thinks he can save everything and I so hope he does. But, lets get to my confessions.

I confess that every single towel I own is on my bathroom floor. Why? Well because while I was curling my hair this morning the toilet decided it just wanted to overflow. Just because. No reason for it's madness. My bathroom floor was flooded. I'll add that I was also running late. The only good thing about this was Brylee cheering me on as I was cleaning up the floor. 

I confess that my hair looks terrible today. You see, I was in the middle of curling it when the toilet freaked out. I guess this is the morning of freak outs - computer, toilet, mother nature, me. 

I confess that it wasn't raining until I was trying to put B in her car seat. Then it poured. Of course it did. I grabbed my little umbrella to put over me to keep from getting soaked.

I confess that it's very hard to buckle a car seat with one hand - the other was holding the umbrella.

I confess that I broke my umbrella. Somehow a piece of the umbrella got stuck in the little area where the window meets the car (I really don't know how to explain that) and after trying to get it unstuck with one hand I gave up, let the umbrella go with my other hand, used two hands to try and pull the stuck piece out and broke it in the process. 

I confess that I was wet at this point and glad I had a hair tie in my purse!

I confess that I came super close to just calling in, but instead was just 30 minutes late.

I confess that I seriously need to have a talk with mother nature. This bipolar weather has got to go! As well as these allergies. The balloon head is back and I wish I could breath.

I confess that I am a Dallas Cowboys fan, will always be, and I find this funny! Yes, it's a hot topic right now, but this is funny!

I confess that the guys at work (remember I work at the police department) got me a taser and I have no clue how to use it. In fact, after they showed me how it worked, I'm a bit scared of it! ha. 

I confess that I may be sending my toddler to you northerners getting snow for the weekend because last night she prayed for it to snow. Not here girlfriend, no ma'am! 

I confess that Tate took down some of Brylee's wallpaper in her bathroom last night (yes, the one that flooded this morning). A few weeks ago I noticed some of it was held together with tape so it needed to come down stat! I'm not real sure what his motive was for doing it last night and not finishing it, but now I have a bathroom covered in towels and half wallpapered - half drywall with no intentions of fixing it soon. If I didn't already hate it, I would now. ha

I confess that this is my last confession today. I'm at a point of giving up on a certain relationship in my life. I don't want to but I really don't know what else to do. We've just about hit a brick wall and  cannot seem to work around it. It's been a struggle to make it work and I've finally had to come to my senses and realize that some people will never change and you cannot make them change. Sometimes your relationships need a detox too. I'm hoping we can figure something out, it'll be a tough relationship to lose. :(

Thank goodness it's Thursday and tomorrow afternoon we'll be headed out for a little mini vacation (and some 7 on 7 football!).

Have the best day, y'all!

xx Leah

Scribbles

A few weeks ago we were having dinner with some friends of ours, one of them has a daughter, Allie, who is just a few weeks younger than Brylee. I brought coloring books and crayons inside with me because we like to visit (duh!) and kids need something to keep them busy while we are visiting. Confession: I always keep them in my purse - you just never know! Anyways, while sitting at dinner I noticed Allie was coloring inside the lines, near perfect, while Brylee was just scribbling away. I casually said something about how well Allie colored and her mom said they worked on it in school. Immediately my mind went 10 million directions. Why couldn't Brylee color in the lines? She colors at school and at home. They do go to two different schools, maybe it's the school. Maybe it's Brylee. Maybe it was the fact that I hadn't shown her or told her any different. She colors each "thing" one color but it's always scribbled (like hair is one color, shirt is another - it's not just random scribbles over the whole page). After a few days we were at home coloring and I asked her why she didn't color in the lines. She replied with "what do you mean?" I showed her what I meant and she tried, yes there were still scribbles, but she tried to keep them in the lines.

A few more days went by and she was coloring her little heart away at the kitchen table (yes, B LOVES to color) while I was cooking dinner. I noticed she was back to scribbling so I said "hey B, why don't you color inside the lines?" She looked at me and said "I'm sorry mommy, I'm trying". Immediate mom guilt. I didn't mean to make her feel bad about it, I was just trying to get her to color, in my mind, the right way. 

Fast forward a few weeks while were out eating dinner one night. Tate had gone to get our food and this older lady walked up to our table told Brylee how pretty she was and how pretty her picture was. The lady then looked at me with the biggest smile and said "do you see that man at the counter paying?" I replied yes to which she said "That's my baby. I overheard you talking about coloring inside the lines. It's okay mama, I'd give anything to have him scribble again!" Y'all, I melted! Snow on the ground in 100 degree weather - yup, that was me. A big puddle. Tears filled my eyes. The lady hugged me and said "don't cry, enjoy it! Parenting is hard and you're doing a great job!"

My eyes welled up again just typing that. I've heard the whole 'you're going to miss this' spill so many times but this one struck me. I was trying to push B to do something that I should have been patient with. She's growing entirely too fast and one day I'll get a picture that is perfectly colored - no scribbles and no ghost areas - and I just might miss those scribbled pages.



 I think as humans we are always comparing something whether we mean to or not. We compare ourselves to other women, our husbands to other men and our children to other children. I was comparing Brylee to Allie over the fact that Allie colored inside the lines. Why? In my mind I felt like B should be on the same level because she is the same age. Every milestone in B's life has been early - all of them! Why was it so hard to grasp the concept of coloring in the lines? Shes is so smart and I shouldn't have let something like this get to me like I did. I got to where I was feeling like I wasn't doing enough, like I wasn't being a good enough mom. It took Tate getting real with me one night to remind me that I am a great mom.

So, to the mom waiting with a baby isn't walking yet, isn't talking yet, isn't riding a bike without training wheels yet, isn't writing their name yet, isn't coloring inside the lines yet, whatever if may be, you are fantastic, more than enough, and are doing a great job! Their time will come and some of those memories will be a blur. To the hopeful mom that is trying so hard, I hope and pray that you get scribbles one day!



Sometimes we just need to be reminded to quit comparing, everybody will do things differently and develop when the time is right. We should always, always enjoy the scribbles!

Confessions | Take 2

Every time I say or do something that I think "hey, that would be a good confession" and I write it down somewhere. Now that I have my multiple sticky notes, receipts, construction paper, etc., notes all gathered up, it's time to confess! Linking up with Jess!

// I confess that I am not wearing green today. Happy St. Patrick's Day! :)

// I confess that I hide Tate's shoes when he doesn't put them back in the closet! When he starts to run low on shoes he'll start asking. They've been hidden under the bed, in the hall closet, Brylee's drawers, garage - you name it! One day he'll learn. 

 // I confess that I don't like when a link doesn't take me to a new window. I have forgotten to do this before so I'm guilty of it - sorry - but chances are I probably won't come back to the blog. If I try to hit the back arrow it always takes me to a blank page so I just forget it. 

// I confess that I like the taste of cough syrup. Yes, the cherry kind! Weird? Okay, moving on. 

// I confess that I'm always hungry if I eat breakfast. If I skip it I'm fine until lunch but man am I starving if I eat breakfast. Why???

// I confess that I eat dill relish out of the jar. I always have. I guess that's just about as weird as cough syrup. Again, moving on.

// I confess that I use a lot of exclamation points and I'm very wordy! I never had a problem in school trying to meet a word count, I always had to worry about have too many words! And the exclamation points, I'm always afraid people will think I'm yelling but it's just a habit now! 

// I confess that as much as I try to buy cute pajamas, I still sleep in Tate's old shirts and yoga shorts! I wait until his shirts start getting dingy and have some holes and then move them to my pj drawer. 

// I confess that every time I hear Want You To Want Me by Jason Derulo I think of the Luke Bryan karaoke duet. Seriously, add some twang and slow it down a bit and it could have been Luke's all along! Agree?

And those are all I have for you today. :)

Friday Favorites

Glorious Friday! This week has flown by for me, even with it being a short week. We have nothing planned for the weekend. Did you hear me right? NOTHING! No trips, no games, no plans! Other than some yard work, because hello early Texas spring! Tate does have a game tonight but I'm not counting that. :)

As always, I'm linking up with my favorite Friday gals.

 Andrea | Erika

 

April | Christina | Natasha

 

Karli

| ONE |

I didn't do a weekend recap Monday, but we went home over the weekend. Going home is always a favorite. We met our new sweet niece Merritt, went on a date (funny how we have to go home to go on a date!), and my sister and I took B and my nephew to see the new Kung Fu Panda! I've never seen any of the other movies and B never said she wanted to see it but Jackson did  and it was the only kid's movie out (other than Alvin and the Chipmunks). It was actually cute and funny. We definitely enjoyed our weekend home.

| TWO |

This white tunic! I got the blue one a few weeks ago and my white one came in right before we left for Odessa. Perfect for a Valentine's date with some touches of pink. I love that I can wear them with jeans and leggings. (Please ignore the terrible wallpaper in Brylee's bathroom - that's next on our to do list!)

| THREE |

I put up some St. Paddy's day decor. I always decorate according to seasons but now that Brylee is old enough to understand each different holiday (big or small) I want to add a few things here and there for her. I remember my mom doing this for us when we were kids and I loved it! I'll probably start adding in some Easter things since Easter is so close to St. Paddy's day this year. #yesimcrazy



| FOUR |

Random Leah fact: I drink a ton of water - I love water - but I'll only drink it cold! I'll open a bottle but when it reaches room temperature I'll put it in the freezer for a bit and open another one. I mentioned a few months ago that I wanted a Yeti or Swell bottle and he got me a Yeti for Valentine's day! I knew he wouldn't get the swell because he won't order it online and you can't get them local, but Academy + Yeti = Valentine for me! It keeps my drink cold all day and I love it! Got sidetracked. I found some water benefits while 'pinning' the other day and they are all favorite reasons of mine to drink that water!



| FIVE |

I made two super delicious recipes this week and both in the crockpot! One was Beef and Broccoli and the other was the Coffee Rubbed Brisket Tacos I talked about a few weeks back. Recipes coming soon, but take my word- OMG delicious!



| SIX |



So yesterday after I confessed all my things to y'all, I could not get Usher's Confessions out of my head. My solution to that was to listen to my Usher Pandora station. When Tate got home for lunch yesterday (we both go home every day for lunch and once a week go out - it's our time together) he started jamming right along with me. These kind of songs were out before we knew each other so it was just funny to see him singing old school Usher.

And to go right along with that, today at work I started off listening to it then decided I wanted something different. Instead of picking just one station I decided to shuffle all. This seemed like a good idea until we went from Frank Sinatra to Sofia the First to Mariah Carey Christmas. And with only 5 skips? I quickly reevaluated that decision in checking all stations. ha! 

| SEVEN |

Sunroof weather is always a favorite! I love, love, love it!!



| EIGHT |

Carrie Underwood's bob she debuted at the Grammy's quickly became a favorite! Many moons ago I cut mine like this also and now I want to do it all over again - except I won't because it took way too long to grow it out. I do think this hair style looks great on her though.

| NINE |

And I'll leave you with this funny video. I do this every time I go shopping so I find this hilarious!


Have a great weekend ladies!

 

These Are My Confessions | February

Cue: Usher. I guess that could be a confession also - back in the day I was a huge Usher fan. I knew every lyric to every song. I miss him being on the Voice but did you guys hear that Christina is coming back?! YAY! 

I'm so glad the Confessions Link up is back. I'm not sure I'll be linking up every week, but we'll see.

Linking up with Jess from the Newly. 

1 | I confess that I feel like Superwoman when I get home from work and dinner is ready in the crockpot! Isn't is the greatest feeling? Sometimes I have to do a bit more work but having the majority done is fantastic! I know I'm not alone on this one. 

2 | I confess that I have Resting Bitch Face. This is not new but I was kindly reminded of it a few days ago when someone walked in and the questions began: Why are you mad? Are you in a bad mood? Is this a bad time? Why don't you ever smile? People, for reals, stop. I'm a very happy-go-lucky kind of girl and it takes a lot to make me mad but I have RBF and I just can't help it. And my lips are big, therefore making me look like I pout 24-7. Whew.  That was a lot.

3 | I confess that I spent 4 hours on pinterest yesterday. I just talked about pinterest in my Show and Tell Tuesdays post and yesterday managed to spend so long on there. To be fair though, I was cleaning and organizing my boards. #yesimweird #ocd 

4 | I confess that I've gained 4 lbs. In my February to-do post I shared that I just lost 3 and now I've gained 4 back. I believe my enjoying of Valentine's day goodies a bit too much and mother nature hitting at the same time does nothing good for me. TMI? 

5 | I confess that I don't understand Twitter. I only got one to win concert tickets like 6 years ago (I did win them btw). I want to like it because Facebook is annoying me and I'm slowing going to try it out - don't hold me accountable to that statement.  I do love me some Instagram though. 

6 | I confess that Brylee is being good for Santa. I'm going to hold on to that for as long as it works. Yes I know he's back at the North Pole and won't be back for 10 more months, but if it keeps that attitude (OMG!) to a minimum, I'll take it! And for the record, this was her doing, not mine! 

7 | I confess that I drink a TON of water every day. Not that that's a bad confession, but here's the  deal - my only restroom at work is upstairs. A case of laziness sets in and I just don't want to walk those stairs 10 times a day so I just hold it which I know isn't good. Again, tmi? On the other hand, it may help with confession #4 up there!

And there ya go, 7 of my confessions.

Tomorrow's Friday - in the case you don't have a calendar and didn't already know that. ;)

Woohoo!

Happy confessions, ladies!